Hey, baby.

Yesterday, I went to a going away party for a dear friend, and I had anticipated that we would talk about you. The last time I saw that friend was during the two week wait. It had been a week after the IUI but another week before I…

Good evening, baby.

Today I went to do my last baseline ultrasound and bloodwork appointment. At least at this clinic. Your father and I are moving next month (location TBD, still), and we know we can only do one more round.

All of our hope in one more round. If…

Hi, baby.

I went running today. It was the first time I had run in two and half weeks, before my last round of fertility treatments. After our first failed IUI, I asked my doctor if running during the two week wait was a problem. He nodded his head and…

Hi, Baby.

I’ve had today’s date written on a white board in our kitchen—June 16: pregnancy test. This was the day we were to learn if you were finally on your way. However, I figured I would have a pretty good idea if I was pregnant or not before today…

Hi, Baby.

I am 10 dpiui, which means in the infertility world, that it’s been 10 days since my second IUI. I am still six days away from my scheduled pregnancy test, two until my period is expected to arrive, and three until I hit the point where I was…

Hi, baby. Today is your dad’s and mine anniversary. We were married three years ago in a hot June Tennessee day. Besides the humidity, soaking the foreheads and underarms of most of our guests, it was a perfect day. …

Baby,

I’ve developed a new habit for Tuesdays during this in-between time. Well, it’s a habit in that I have done it twice now.

Basically, I wear myself out about being worried about this or that, and then I decide I need to get out of the house. I put…

Good evening, baby.

It’s a gorgeous Friday night, and rare in that both your father and I have the day off. We’ve been married almost three years now, baby, and I am still in awe how much I enjoy spending time with him. We had a lovely day in which…

Hi, baby.

I know that is has been awhile, and while I have not written you here, it doesn’t mean I have not been in contact. I talk to you each time I see a beautiful flower or feel the warmth of a sunny day. I sing to you each…

Hi, baby.

For the first time in the 32 months we’ve spent unsuccessfully trying for you, your dad and I finally have a reason as to why you have not come. Better yet, we have a path forward.

After a month of tests, we met with our doctor at the…

Dear Future Baby

Trying to have a baby, seeking fertility treatments, trying to stay hopeful.

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